What is real?

Something to chew on... In philosophy today we discussed Plato's idea that some things contain more reality than others. For example, material things actually contain less reality because they waste away. Whereas a mathematical truth like 2+2=4, has no tangibility (no way to smell, feel, touch, taste, or hear) BUT is more real because it will always stand true no matter what... Could it be then that our theory for needing to "see to believe" may be a giant fluke? We trust in mathematics and through them, have made all kinds of progress and incredible things but though we can still use math to create, math is still not physically tangible... I think Plato was onto something... I think Christ is as real as it gets, more real than a mathematical truth. He IS the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6). I think he tried so hard to outline this for us because he knew we would come up with separate ideas of what is "the way" and what is "truth". He knew that since He is in everything and since He is truth, that when we really sought truth, we would find him. I cannot explain how a mathematical equation can have such a realness, but I can't argue it because it is true and will stand no matter what I throw at it. So when I buckle down and dissect, all I can find is Christ- all powerful, all knowing, all true, everlasting. Thanks God for being in everything, for being more real than anything I've ever known.

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." Hebrews 13:8

"Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the INFINITE  value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ." Phillipians 3:8

"He is before all things, and in him all things hold together." Colossians 1:17

Do I dare hope in Him?

Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. I say to myself, “The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!” The LORD is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him. So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the LORD. And it is good for people to submit at an early age to the yoke of his discipline: (Lamentations 3:21-27 NLT)

Do I dare hope in Him? Do I dare trust and wait? This is an ongoing decision I have to make every day. He IS faithful to His promises and SO good to us!! This is so easy to lose sight of in the face of opposition. Lately I have felt like I am in a process of deep healing and waiting on the Lord. It is so easy to get impatient and either take matters into my own hands or give up on His promises altogether. But God is teaching me, all over again, the beauty in the process. He is showing me, step by step, to let Him be my motivation. "It's okay to not have it altogether Hope! That's why I'm here, to hold you together. I am strong in your weakness." He keeps proving the when, "Have I not been good and faithful to you? What makes you think that would change?"... But the when has still not arrived! So I rest in His unchanging love. I cuddle up next to His strong arm. As I learn to wait, I learn to embrace my Father. I learn to trust Him as He takes me deeper. I learn to hope in Him like I have never hoped before. I learn to call Him with desperation, "Yes, you came when I called; you told me, 'Do not fear.'" (Lamentations 3:57 NLT). I am letting go more and more and letting him take me to a place where faith has no limit. Where faith is full and infinite. Each day, the challenge is renewed. The question is asked, "Will you dare to hope in me?" No amount of opposition can compare to the greatness and power of His love. It is vital  that we hold onto the promises He gives rather than the losses. We must let our hope in Him heal every hurt and lift every burden. He is all around, speaking life and promise into us constantly. Let His voice be what moves you, not the voice of opposition... In the end, The Light of the World wins! 

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” And he said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment. The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son. (Revelation 21:3-7 ESV)

Why do you fear? I am in everything.

I am still trying to soak in all I experienced last week. One of the words I was given was, "Why do you fear? I am in EVERYTHING." It is amazing how just a speck of fear can keep us from our true callings and witnessing the fullness of His glory. Colossians 1:17 says, "He goes before all things and in Him all things hold together." Why do we ever doubt when He is with us, all around us and in our midst?! I think it is because we get so focused on our hurt or weakness that we forget about HIS sovereignty and power. 

Coming back, I realized how fear kept me from walking in the FULLNESS of who God called me to be. I had held tightly to so many wounds that I began giving up on prayer, forgiveness, and confrontation. Even though He had created me to be a voice of truth, I stopped speaking. I became so frustrated that I lost my joy and started letting hurt dictate my attitude. It was "my right" to be upset and hurt. I became so accustomed to letting fear rule me that I didn't even notice that I had let satan disarm me of my power and potential. 

I realize that freedom is found in reckless abandonment. The more I empty myself of my own rights and fears, I actually find freedom and joy in my true identity. With this revelation, satan's attacks now seem like ants beneath my feet instead of the mountains they once felt like. Satan will no longer have the upper hand. No matter what it takes, what sacrifices I have to make, what offenses I may cause, what relationships I may lose, I will no longer stand by silently as the enemy steals, kills, and destroys. I will pray in FULL faith and expectancy, I will forgive REPEATEDLY, and I will SPEAK when God asks. It is my JOY to fight for the kingdom no matter the cost!!

When we start to live in full-out faith, we begin to gain the Father's heart and see Him in everything. We find a freedom sweeter than what words could ever hold. Our heart breaks instead of grows bitter. We begin to see the gold in others instead of their mistakes. We start to do the unthinkable and witness God's miracles. We become living, breathing vessels of His healing, forgiveness, and LIFE. 

Thank you, Jesus for gracing me with your truth. Thank you for restoring my faith and identity and allowing me to be your voice. May my faith be FULL and propelled by a holy excitement. May my trust truly have no borders or limits! May my eyes behold the truth of your constant presence! It's time to shine!! 

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4

Attitude Check

It is often our first reaction when trials hit to worry... Or at least mine! I try to think of everything I can do to keep things in order. Every safeguard I can set up to ensure that my walls stand. The truth is that God HAS to be my foundation of strength. I have nothing without Him. 

I often doubt Him and His ability to heal, redeem, or restore. I question His character and ask why He would allow something bad to happen to me when I am trying so hard to follow Him. I begin feeling sorry for myself and the issues I have to endure.

What's funny is that I get so focused on myself that I forget about Him. I forget that He is sovereign, faithful, good, and glorious. I forget that he endured the cross so that His grace and glory could be revealed to mankind. I forget that as I endure, I am learning to suffer as He did and should take joy in knowing His glory is on the way. Just like Christ's resurrection from the dead, God WILL resurrect my current trial into something more glorious than I could ever fathom. If I begin to operate in a mindset of joy and expectancy as opposed to worry and doubt, my eyes will be opened to His grace and power being revealed. It may not be as timely as I would prefer, but he is strengthening my faith and purifying my attitude. He is showing me how to trust Him deeper and love Him better... So that my heart will be attuned to His voice when He speaks, "My blessing and grace are coming, my Spirit is resting upon you, my life is being glorified through you, I am constant and will not fail you." 

Thank you, God, for your incredible grace and awesome glory! Thank you for letting me be a recipient of both! Thank you for showing me that while I thought I was under great trial, I am actually being held in your great favor and grace! 

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls. Concerning this salvation, the prophets who prophesied about the grace that was to be yours searched and inquired carefully, inquiring what person or time the Spirit of Christ in them was indicating when he predicted the sufferings of Christ and the subsequent glories. It was revealed to them that they were serving not themselves but you, in the things that have now been announced to you through those who preached the good news to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven, things into which angels long to look. Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, since it is written, “You shall be holy, for I am holy.” And if you call on him as Father who judges impartially according to each one’s deeds, conduct yourselves with fear throughout the time of your exile, knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot. He was foreknown before the foundation of the world but was made manifest in the last times for the sake of you who through him are believers in God, who raised him from the dead and gave him glory, so that your faith and hope are in God. Having purified your souls by your obedience to the truth for a sincere brotherly love, love one another earnestly from a pure heart, since you have been born again, not of perishable seed but of imperishable, through the living and abiding word of God; for “All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flower of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls, but the word of the Lord remains forever.” And this word is the good news that was preached to you. (1 Peter 1:3-25 ESV)

Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. But let none of you suffer as a murderer or a thief or an evildoer or as a meddler. Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in that name. For it is time for judgment to begin at the household of God; and if it begins with us, what will be the outcome for those who do not obey the gospel of God? And “If the righteous is scarcely saved, what will become of the ungodly and the sinner?” Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good. (1 Peter 4:12-19 ESV)

Cravings

I am writing this as I sit at the kitchen counter staring at the angel food cake. It is 10:38pm and way past the hour that I am supposed to eat. This summer I have had many vocal issues due to stomach problems and allergies. Being a singer, this can be especially frustrating. I have to be intentional about every bit of food I let into my body and avoid eating late at night. For someone who loves food, this is a struggle. I have failed so many times just because the hunger pangs are much louder than the reality of my consequences. I quickly forget that my decision could cause me to go hoarse for days with just a slip up of self control in my eating habits. Isn't it true for us spiritually? The cost of giving into our flesh can have such deep effects but when we are in the moment of temptation, it is so easy to give in. God is teaching me that there is power in discipline and self-control. It is so clear and easy to understand but hard to apply: eat bad food or eat late at night and lose your ability to sing with ease. Yet time and time again I am tested and fail miserably! I put myself through so much misery just because I choose to let the flesh rule my decisions! BUT when I choose to say no to my cravings, I am able to sing freely and worship freely!! When we say no to our flesh's cravings and yes to our Spiritual health, we are given tremendous power, freedom, and ability. We are able to accomplish great things through the Spirit that could never be attained while bound to the flesh. Yes, of course God can use me in other ways without my voice... But my voice was given to me for a reason and purpose... What sorrow it would be to not experience my purpose because of my disregard to apply the truth.  It is up to us to decide how much reign we will give the Holy Spirit in our lives. Are we going to live in freedom, purity, and joy, with authority over the flesh and knowledge that we are fulfilling our true purpose? Or will we remain wayward, confused, and crippled by the flesh? Spirit move in me and strengthen my spirit. Give me discipline to apply your truth. Help me to burn off the things of my flesh and teach me to crave YOU instead!

A little post on big prayers...

"Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." -Mark 11:24

I cannot even begin to express the extent of miracles God has worked this week through expectant hearts. I have seen so many posts of medical miracles, experienced answered prayers for rain (which we received in abundance), and experienced little miracles throughout the week due to people praying with an expectant heart. So many times we are told to pray like this, "God, if it is your will to heal, let it be done." While it is so important to surrender to His will, I sometimes think we use this prayer as a cop-out because we are afraid to ask expectantly. I truly believe God desires stretch our faith much more than that. He says, "Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and thrown into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him." (Mark 11:23 ESV). He wants to shake things up, and He moves when we pray but it is up to us to let go of ourselves and our worldly mindset to let Him shake things up! He wants us to know the power of the Holy Spirit within us and the joy of knowing His heart for us! May we start approaching the throne both with reverence and boldness! Pray with expectation. 

Motorcycle Driveby

"I've never been so alone and I've never been so alive!"

These lyrics are the anthem of my summer! Okay, I know the song is packed with all kinds of break-up emotions, but let's be honest.. Life comes with hurts! Although the aches I feel do not coincide with the entire song (or a breakup/romance for that matter haha) I do like its depiction of life's bittersweet reality. Wrestling with aches and joys, God keeps reminding me that HE came to give me abundant life. He is the Good Shepherd and sacrifices just so I may know His love for me. "Summertime and the wind is blowing outside in lower Chelsea and I don't know what I'm doing in the city, the sun is always in my eyes... I go home to the coast it starts to rain I paddle out on the water alone, taste the salt and taste the pain... Summer dies, its swells rise, the sun goes down in my eyes, see this rolling wave darkly coming to take me home." Life comes with confusion. Even when we feel like we have defeated a battle, the taste of pain can still well up when we least expect it. It's these moments I am learning to cherish. These occasions when I am sitting on the seas, trying to enjoy the breeze and view but with a salty taste hanging on my tongue. The bittersweet reminds me how I desperately need my Good Shepherd to fill me, lead me, and give me His life, His joy, His love! These moments of heartache are contrasted by the Healer. Confusion opposed by adventure. Dark skies pierced by starlight. Bitter tastes redeemed by sweet sunsets. Loneliness excluded by finding refuge in The Father.

"And there's this burning, just like there's always been. I've never been so alone, and I've never been so alive!"  If there is one thing I have learned, it is that I want to keep burning. Even though it may be painful and grueling, I don't want to just survive life numbly... I WANT to LIVE. I want to be fueled by life's challenges. I pray that the deeper my pain, the higher my love for The Lord. The greater my void, the more freedom I experience. Help me to feel and burn Lord!!! I don't want to just be content, I want to thrive! May I be so filled and overflowing with You!!! Open my eyes so that I may trust You and know You more! 

"The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd sacrifices his life for the sheep... I am the good shepherd; I know my own sheep, and they know me." (John 10:10, 11, 14 NLT)